Hey! it's been a bit. Lots has happened. In the beginning of October I went to the mental hospital. I was there for a week. Since getting out, I dont have a job anymore, so that kinda sucks. And this boy I talked about in the last blog, he turned out to be a player. I caught him with another girl at the fair, so now I kind of just have to bare with him being at church and in Sunday School. He did send an apology message, but that was only after someone had a talk with him. So its not the best apology message out there. Anyways, we are now selling my sheep. Unfortunately he finds ways to get out all the time, and we can't put the effort or time to keep having him do that. We sure will miss Willie the sheep. I have been journaling a lot since I got out. It really helps calm me down, especially at night. I'm currently not allowed to have my phone in my bedroom, so that kind of sucks. My search for love has kind of gotten out of hand. I obsess over it too much, which is really unfortunate because I keep forgetting to spend time with myself. It's a bit lonely with only one bestfriend, that you cant even see all the time cause your parents are bitches, yknow? So I'm pretty lonely over here. Just kind of have me and my three annoying brothers. Update on the baptism... It went well! I'm very proud of my family for doing what we did, and speaking our testimonies to everyone. Whsat does suck is my mom looked very...displeased. Which I don't know why, seems hard for her to be happy for me anymore. Gosh am I rambling? Anywho, thats my update for now. Hopefully I'll update again soon. Cya lovlies.